Sometimes it's better to skip the reality...

Why is it that reality rarely ever lives up to perceptions or expectations???  When you first meet someone, it's natural to fill in the things you don't yet know about them with bright, shiny ideas of what they must be like, of who they really are.  Because of COURSE you would only be attracted to great people, right?  Unfortunately, (at least in my personal experience) once you find out the truth about that person, it's usually not half as good as the idea you'd begun to form in your head.  And once that reality begins to set in, where do you go from there?  Do you compromise your own "must have" list to bend to the reality of the person in front of you or do you chalk it up to another life experience and continue your quest for that white whale that's surely out there somewhere?

Ultimately, I suppose the answers to those questions depend on what end game you had in mind.  Was this someone that you wanted to stick around for a while or were you just enjoying the moment and taking things as they came?  For me, in this case, it was the latter - I was simply having fun and enjoying someone's company with the knowledge that it was definitely not a long-term thing.  Still, taking the shiny off has made me wonder whether I even want a summer fling.  I can't go back and unlearn/unhear the things I've learned/heard, but do they really even matter in the case of a fling?  I really don't know.  I think they might.  It doesn't matter how attractive (hot even) you are...if you're an asshole to other people (even if I'm not the one on the receiving end), that's a really ugly trait.

Why can't people just live up to my unattainable expectations???  :)

Feeling older than my age...

For the longest time, I felt younger than my age...despite teasing jokes from close friends (since I started law school a few years after being in the working world, I was always the "old" one in the group.  It's probably a good thing that my friend Marquis isn't a follower of mine on here since he LOOOOVES to reuse his jokes about my age whenever he can).  I always laughed it off though because I was feeling good - and looking younger than the majority of them anyway!

Unfortunately, in the last week or so, I haven't been feeling so great.  My knees were hurting a bit before my kickball game last Thursday but by the time I woke up on Friday morning it was all I could do to move my legs and get out of bed.  Honestly, each step is still painful.  Walking up or down stairs is like having someone jam a screwdriver beneath my kneecap and twist it around with each step I take.  Yesterday at work, I let a student go past me on the stairwell so he wouldn't have to wait for me to get up the stairs at the snail speed I can manage.  All in all...no bueno!

Considering the fact that this happened a few months ago when I started playing tennis again I decided not to mess around this time.  So on Thursday morning I'll be heading to an orthopedic doctor (the one that re-broke my toe for me last Fall) and hopefully he'll be able to tell me what's going on and what exercises I can do to strengthen the muscles around my knee to hopefully avoid this in the future.  I know I'm getting older, but this is ridiculous!

Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.

Quite possibly the longest blog title ever...and a quote from one of my favorite movies of all time!  But seriously, the time has been flying by.  Things have been a little crazy in my dating life, but I won't bore you with details of that.  Suffice it to say that it's easier than you'd think to acquire a semi-stalker, while intellect is important it cannot make up for zero personality, and most notably, it's nice to be the girl envied by other girls instead of being the one turning green with said envy.  Yes, that means that I "got the guy" this time around.  Yay!

Things really are busy.  While I feel like everything is flying by, I'm having a great time and haven't been this happy in a really long time.  And that's still true after finding out I have to replace my A/C entirely - goodbye, $6,300.00.  My weeks seem to fly by since I have so much going on.  Mondays and/or Tuesdays are nights to meet up with friends for dinner.  Wednesdays are trivia night (1st place victory tonight!!!).  Thursdays are kickball and the post-kickball party (my team may be the bad news bears kickball team but we truly DOMINATE at flip cup!).  And then it's the weekend - filled with more time with friends and hopefully some weekend trips coming up.

All in all, there's nothing to complain about socially.  Work has been a bit tough lately (and more stressful than I'd like) but at the end of the day there are more positives than negatives so I just go with it.  How are you doing?  Are you excited about the summer?  Any fun plans???